Turning away from the closed door.

18 years has passed. Way too quickly and so

metimes i feel that i really couldn't keep up with time. I had LIVED for 18 years! To be honest i feel really lucky for many people in this world didn't even get the chance live this many years. Though not all my years are like a cozy bed of roses, not every path i took lead to a happy ending but i thank God for giving me the chance to go through it. My 18 years are filled with joy,sadness and all types of other emotions. Days where I feel that I am on top of the world and days which I wish that the world would just crumble to its core

. Truly, it was one heck of a good experience.

Half of 2011 has passed and soon it will be gone and be replaced by 2012. Things are really different now. Things had changed. From friends to personality to fashion sense to the place you live to... etc Honestly, this year hasn't been very good for me. Change occurred one too many at a time. Sometimes i find myself unable to cope.

Lord, where are you leading me?

Being alive for 18 years. I am sure God brought me to this world for a reason. I just wish i knew what are his plans for me. Sometimes i thought about my uncertain future. I am not even sure what i want to do as a career.

I guess i just have to try harder to place my complete trust in the Lord.

Lord, you had blessed me, protected me, lead me through this 18 years. Sometimes i did not listen to you and i strayed away. I made mistakes and you forgave me.

I really don't know how else to thank you.